Sunday, February 05, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@4:13 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
i dislike you cause you treated my supposed-to-be baby like dirt. da*n you bit*h.DON'T HOLLER HIM AROUND BECAUSE HE IS NOT A BALL OF DIRT. DONT REGRET YOUR ACTIONS CAUSE` U ARE THE ONE WHO CHOSE NOT TO APPRECIATE HIM. I LET GO OF HIM TO LET HIM GO TO YOU DESPITE ALL THE PAIN I FACE ALONE. I THOUGHT HE'LL BE HAPPY WITH YOU. I THOUGHT YOU'LL BE THE GIRL WHO WOULD BRING SOME SIGNIFICANCE INTO HIS LIFE. BUT LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO HIM. U'VE DESTROYED HIM. I DISLIKE YOU. GIVE HIM A NEW LEASE OF LIFE. I HATE YOU, BIT*H. I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER THAN HIM. AND HE DESERVES SOMEONE BETTER THAN BOTH YOU AND I; AT LEAST SOMEONE WHO HELPS TO PICK HIM UP WHEN HE'D FALLEN. NOT SOMEONE TO MAKE IT WORSE, BY ADDING FUEL TO FIRE. HE NEEDS SOMEONE BETTER. PLEASE DONT DRIVE HIM TO DESPERATION. QUIT BEING RUTHLESS. I WANT HIM TO BE IN THE HANDS OF A BETTER GIRL, SOMEONE WHO LOVES AND APPRECIATES HIM FOR WHO HE IS. SOMEONE WHO LOOKS AT HIS FLAWS FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. DONT SAY YOU'RE SORRY FOR ALL THAT YOU'VE DONE TO HIM. BECAUSE YOU'VE HURT HIM SO MUCH. SO MUCH SO THAT EVEN I DISLIKE YOU FOR TREATING HIM LIKE THAT. DONT REMIND ME OF HOW HE'D TREATED ME IN THE PAST BECAUSE OF YOU. IT DOESNT BOTHER ME. I JUST DONT WANT TO SEE KENNETH IN SUCH DIRE STRAITS. DO YOU GET ME? DO U GET ME? DIG IT? DIG IT? I DONT KNOW WHAT WENT WRONG BETWEEN THE 2 OF YOU. IM NOBODY TO GO IN BETWEEN ANYWAY. BUT IT DRIVES ME MAD TO SEE HIM IN DESOLATION. WHY DIDN'T YOU TREAT HIM NICELY SO THAT YOU WOULDNT HAVE TO BE LIVING IN SUCH REMORSE TODAY. HE HAD IT COMING FOR TREATING ME LIKE CRAP. BUT YOU WERE EXPECTING A SIMILAR TREATMENT, WERENT YOU? YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT KENNETH. HE WAS YOUR EVERYTHING, JUST LIKE HE WAS MINE. YOU CAN DIE FOR ALL I CARE. IT'S KENNETH WHOM I TAKE PITY ON NOW. DARN IT. HOW COULD YOU DESTROY HIM. I HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO SOMEONE I CARE AND LOVE SO MUCH. I FUCKING HATE YOU. NOTHING CAN REPLACE THE LOVE I HAVE FOR HIM. AND NOTHING CAN REPLACE HIM IN YOUR LIFE. BECAUSE HE'D CHANGED SO MUCH DURING THE FEW MONTHS HE WAS WITH YOU. I COULD DO NOTHING TO CHANGE HIM FOR THOSE 42 MONTHS WE WERE TOGETHER. I SALUTE TO YOU FOR MAKING SUCH A BIG DIFFERENCE IN HIS LIFE. YOU BROUGHT HIM TO THE WILDER SIDE OF LIFE. THEN PLEASE, AT LEAST BRING HIM BACK. WHY DID YOU LEAVE HIM THERE TO DIE OUTSIDE ALONE. I SO WANNA BE THERE FOR HIM. BUT BLAME HIMSELF FOR BEING SO HEDASTRONG, REFUSING MY CARE AND CONCERN. YOU ARE THE ONE HE NEEDS. THE ONE HE WANTS. HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM. GO AHEAD AND CALL ME A NOSEY-PARKER; A LOSER WHO STILL CARES FOR HER EX. SO WHAT. ALL I WANT TO SEE IS KENNETH LEADING A HAPPY LIFE. LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE. LOOK. WHY WHY WHY. i f*cking hate you, bit*h.
♥ Loved, yourname
