Saturday, July 08, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@1:36 AM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
was watching the hongkong drama serial all about cake baking, and happily stuffing slices of orange into my mouth after bathing and dinner. (yes, I BATHE BEFORE DINNER OK.)
Then out of the blue.
My mother said,
"Got boyfriend nevermind. But if break up or what, dont take it too seriously. Take things easily. If break up just break up loh. Nothing one.
blahBlahBLAH... "
i stopped eating instantaneously and stared at her,
"Sorry hor, i got no boyfriend."
and went back to stuffing oranges into my mouth like how you would stuff rosemary(s) or maryrose(s) or whatever weird spice or ingredient that has that mary word, into a turkey.
oh ha-ha-ha. why is my mother so random.
and i'm finally feeling so tired. this week totally sucked.
pain is insane. and my climbing shoes have drove me insane.
my feet are undergoing
that much amount of pain.
having a school song is akin to having no school song in tpjc. it's deemed USELESS la. i am so certain that 99% of the school population have no idea as to what the lyrics exactly are. 1% being the councillors who are obligated to
know the school song (but that doesn't seem like the case, anyway. their mouths are all kept shut). i simply see no point in wasting 3 odd minutes every thursday morning just to hear them play the terrible medley of the sickening school song. we're merely observing silence for the school that's probably gonna collapse tomorrow.
tjc's school song has this military aire. pretty receital and formal. but it's good. at least i still do know the lyrics.
mjc's school song is hip and rock. its so enthusiastic.
innova has no school song currently.
well, i'd rather tpjc has no school song.
tpjc's school song makes me feel like ive just wasted all my strength running to school only to find myself stepping into kiddy palace or faerieland or wadsoever magically fantasized island that is dominated by green goblins and elves. SO FAIRYTALE-ISH. SO STUPID.
i break into spasms of laughter. the school song freaks me out. just as much as the school bulding does. ok nvm. ive quite gotten over the
MySchoolisSoGonnaCollapseAnyMoment thought. it's stupid of me to think that way la.
anw JCT didn't turn out to be too bad. eventhough ryan owned me in bio and chem and chi and econs. marginally okay. we both suck la. i owned him in.. oh. maths. only maths. :X how pathetic. Phoa Bao Zhong you kuku. im gonna stuff more newspapers into your shoes man ((: haha.
and hello everybody, don't slack cause the common tests are over but study hard cause the promos are approaching. 10 more weeks. no more time.
and i'm gonna die this weekend.
- PW research
- PW EOM
- Econs ppt. presentation
- TUTORIALS TUTORIALS TUTORIALS.
- treasure hunt in my home.
i need to bump into POOMEILING anytime soon in school again. i need to. i want to tell you alot alot of stuff. i know its so retarded of me to be so animated and with all that little actions and crazy noises i make. (mind me, i was from drama club in primary school ok. useless and lousy. but so what. i was from DRAMA OK. ) and its purely insane to tickle you with the tpjc school song crap. i need to tell you about me having seen you at primary level. and classmates and uppersec nonsense in temasek. plus all the tpjc rubbish. and i want my ben&jerrys.
i haven't been quite happy. i need ice cream.
ok byebye. i love mr. kevin ng. he is so nice. so encouraging. and he's ever so supportive.
WHY IS HE SO NICE TO ME! ): WHY IS EVERYBODY SO NICE TO ME! ):
but i need it anyway. i need people to be nice to me.
URGG ! i'm a pampered childish freak who's often said to be living in denial. that's crap la.
I DONT DENY IM CRAZY COS I TALK TO MYSELF AND DO STUPID THINGS. ITS ALL BECAUSE YOU CANT HEAR ME WHEN IM SPEAKING OR CANT UNDERSTAND MY LOUSY ENGLISH OR CHINESE. AND SO WHAT IF I READ SO SLOW AT A RATE HALF OF YOURS? SO WHAT IF I TALK SO MUCH NONSENSE AND NOTHING CONSTRUCTIVE SOMETIMES? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN CRITICISE ME AND POKE FUN AT ME! SO WHAT SO WHAT SO WHAT? DON'T YOU KNOW I'LL FEEL HURT TOO! I WILL FEEL THE PAIN COS I AM JUST LIKE EVERYONE OF YOU. I AM NOT LIVING IN DENIAL. I LOVE MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME IS MY PROBLEM. I REPEAT, MY PROBLEM.
but in any way, continue to be nice to me. cause i've always been nice, haven't i? ):
i will care for you if you care for me. but even if you don't care about me,
i will care about you. i care i care i care. i just hope im not caring too much.
you deserve my care, right?
♥ Loved, yourname
